Just keep swimming
At the start of this semester I set myself up with the goal of achieving the best possible grade in all my classes. I started off with enthuisim and hoped to carry that through out the entire semester. We are now half way through the semester and I can proudly say I have followed through with that goal so far. This being my first semester in college, I really had no idea what to expect. I knew going in though that if I was going to start this journey it was all hands on deck. I now have an idea of how to juggle being a student, a mother and a spouse while working full time. It's hard but attainable. It has come with sacrifices and this has been the hardest part for myself. There's a give and take in this process. I cant't give my full attention to studying without taking away some time from something else. I want to be superwoman and succeed in all aspects of my life right now, but I'm having to come to the realization that I'm not superwoman. A goal that I did not write down the first time was the goal of maintaining my mental health. Before starting school I had found a balance with my anxiety and depression. When I began school I had to give up my therapy because I just wasn't going to have time. Now that we are half way through the semester my anxiety is catching up to me. This is the point where I have to push myself but also allow some room for error. I'm not talking about slacking off I'm talking about If I know I studied, read everything I was supposed to, gave an assignment my full attention yet still got 3 answers wrong I have to concentrate on how many I got right. I tend to do the opposite. A pessimist in a over achievers mindset. It will be interesting to read back to this post at the end of this semester and see how I did. Did the sky end up falling like I thought it would because I believed I couldn't handle everything ? Interestingly enough I could answer that question, so far the sky has not fallen. Two weeks into my Intro to Psych class I had a anxiety attack and swore I was going to fail the class so I should just drop out. Two quizzes and a midterm later I'm sitting on an A. I guess I have to give myself more credit than I do. Half way there, just keep swimming.